A week later and a grand total of 4 weeks since the first injury and my foot still hurts. I’ve had quite a few conversations with my trainer/therapist/coach/sounding board/husband Alan about how I feel about my foot, i.e. answering the question “What does it do for you?” It has caused me to do a lot of soul searching and be honest with myself.
When I first hurt my foot it was annoying, but I thought I would just take a few days off (over the 4th July weekend) and be back to normal so it was not a bad thing at all. Then the foot didn’t improve and I started to get itchy to get back to running. Plus I was getting worried about losing fitness and being set back in my marathon training.
After this, when we started to consider that it may be a stress fracture, I just wanted to know either way whether I was going to be hurt for the long haul or not. I was starting to consider whether I needed to start riding my bike again to maintain my fitness until I could start running again, or whether I should forget about running, spend more time swimming and maybe hit the gym again. I didn’t get an answer on the foot prognosis and this was extremely frustrating. Hence last week’s no-mans land post.
At the beginning of this week I still hand’t run. My foot was not hurting me any more most of the time but I was still scared to run again. Sometimes I think way too much so I needed to release all my random conflicting thoughts to someone else who might be able to make sense of them. Alan asked me that question, “What does your sore foot do for you?”. I had to answer honestly that I was a little scared of the training for my first marathon, especially now that the long runs had got longer than I had ever done before. The injury gave me an exit strategy without having to say that I was dropping out because I was scared. So in a way I am happy that I am injured because I don’t need to face those scary runs and don’t run the risk of finding out that I’m not up to the job.
Now I had figured out what I was thinking the question came “how can I make a rational decision on whether my foot is better if it’s not hurting me right now?”. Again Alan helped me get my head straight and we came up with a plan to help me make an informed decision. I would go for a short run the following day (wednesday) and see how it feels. If all is OK I go a little longer on Friday and then ramp up my mileage to hopefully hit around 10 miles by the end of the following week.
As planned I headed out for my 15 minute run the following morning. My foot started aching after about a quarter mile, but it wasn’t too bad so I carried on. During those 15 minutes I managed to find just about every ache in my body in turn, achilles, knees, hips, even my shoulders! But they all went away again. After the run I didn’t get that sharp pain that I had previously when taking my shoes off either. So far so good.
But over the next 2 days it went downhill again, without doing any more exercise on it. Now on Friday my foot is aching just sitting still and I have pain on walking again. I guess I wasn’t ready for a whole 15 minutes of running.
So, I am going to take it easy for a while and let my foot heal. I don’t know how long “a while” is, so when it feels ready I’m going to try more short test runs. I don’t know whether that will be in time for me to train for and run a marathon, I’ll need to decide that when it feels good again. I am disappointed that I may not be able to follow through on a big goal that I had set myself and a little embarrassed that I’ve had to do it in public. But hopefully my struggles will be something someone reading this can identify with. We all go through this at some point.
I’m going to take a break from marathon blogging as well until I have something more to report on. I will instead channel my efforts into other topics as I see fit.
Keep on running, I’m thinking of you!